Wow!. it has been a long time...

I wasn't home for a few weeks. I went to go stay with my grandma.So sorry that its been a while. While i was gone, my room got super trashed from cousins that were here. So i am cleaning my room and organizing it. And i think i'm going to post pictures. I am getting better with my self confidence. I am just learning to be me.

So i will right back later :)

Cookies :)

So i just made the best cookies ever :)
They are delicious. but i'm glad i'm not going to be home til Saturday, so hopefully they will be all gone by then. Cuz if i was here, i'd definitely eat them all lol. Like i mentioned, i won't be home for a few days, I'm going to my favorite aunts house for the rest of the week, because i like going over there better than staying here alone when all my family is at work, and to celebrate new years :)

The reason i made cookies? Cuz my dad always complains why i never bake for him, but i bake for my aunt and other people. So i made amazing cookies ( sugar cookies). The hint to sugar cookies and m&m cookies, add a box of vanilla pudding mix( don't actually make the pudding lol ). It makes them fluffy and soft.

The shopping went pretty good. I still have $60.00 left.

I will put up pics of tall the outfits, and jewelry and you guys can help me make outfits : )
even though i won't be online for a few days. I might add some posts from my phone. So help me out and comment:)

I'm gonna post what i am wearing today too. Since I am just gonna hang out with family, It's not super cute.

Shopping Day :)

Since not that many people gave me ideas on what to buy, I'm going to try and get the basic "staples" that nina told me to get, and then i am juts going to wing it, and get some clothes that i think are cute. :)I'm excited to go shopping, i just hope the roads aren't that bad :(Well, i am off to go shopping. I will post the things i buy later, as well as the jewelry from yesterday, and you should help me make outfits :)

So... New Jewelry :)

Okay, well so it isn't technically new. But today my aunt and i went through all of my mom's jewelry ( my mom past away when i was eight), my grandma's jewelry, (who died when my mom was 8),and my Great Aunt Nancy's jewelry.Man, did that take forever. A lot of the jewelry isn't in fashion and more, and also a lot of them have been damaged, or broke from old age.We went through 3 big storage boxes, fulled with boxes of jewelry. We aren't done yet. Many of the necklaces that are back in style have clip on earrings, but you can't tell, but many of them aren't so cute.

But after getting all of this jewelry that i am so excited to have, and want to wear it, even though it is vintage, i decided i wanted to get clothes that would let me be able to wear this jewelry. Since alot of the jewelry are bright colors, or elaborate, i was thinking about getting a bunch of solid color shirts ( not sure what shapes, any ideas? like v-necks, or whatever).

If you guys are interested i am going to take pictures of most of the jewelry i got today, and maybe you can help me create outfits that will go with the jewelry :)

Thanks :)

Shopping Listttt :)

Help me add to it I want many ideas :)
So far:
Cardigans-gray/black/white
Jeans-dark rinsed
loose v-necks-solid colors
high waisted skit

(all thanks to Nina.)

Please add more :)

Thanks to Snickerdoodle :)

Snickerdoodle from Teen Vogue Forums said many true things about my confidence blog.

She said " What confidence does have to do with being comfortable with who you are RIGHT THIS SECOND. What I see is a girl trying to become what her images of confidence are. However, when you find yourself to look that way, I have a feeling you will still feel like the same girl, with the same insecurities.""Tell me, what are your greatest insecurities? Set specific goals to combat those at the heart of the issue. If you are insecure about how you look, the issue is making peace with your body and loving how unique you have been made, not finding some new mascara or jeans." "First off, by setting a date to have at least some confidence, you are setting yourself up for failure. That goal has a deadline (good) but the goal is not clear and tangible and the time frame is so unrealistic."

And she is totally right! :)
So i am going to take her advice. But also, I want to look cute because I want to. For me looking cute/good in something, makes me feel better about myself, and it will help me learn how to love myself when I am cute, and even when I am not. But she is right, confidence isn't about looking pretty, its about how you feel about yourself,right this second. I do have many insecurities.and i am hoping that saying them, and trying to deal with them, and to learn how to love them will help me gain the confidence i am looking for. And teach me to love myself.

I'm not going to just look at the negative things, and insecurities, but i am also going to mention the things i love about myself. Because if you just pay attention to all the insecurities, you forget what you like about yourself.
Insecurities:

1.That my face isn't always clear ( I try, but all of the products I've tried don't work well, but I know, no one is perfect, so this is one insecurity i am going to have to give time, and learn to love it.

2.That I am not great at doing hair and makeup. ( But this can be fixed with practice.

3. My body. I'm not extremely over weight, nor am i extremely skinny. I don't want to lose a lot of weight, I just want to tone up a little bit.

4. Hmm.... there may be more, but i can't think of them right now, but i will add them when I remember.


Likes:
1. I really like my personality, and how i am nice to almost everyone. ( I try to be nice to everyone, but sometimes people are just mean, and i can't help but treat them the same way ((bad habit)))

2. I like how i try and look on the bright side of things rather than the dark side.

3. I like the way my eyes look.

4. I like how I love colorguard/flagline. And how it makes me really happy.


Another thing that Snickerdoodle said, was that i need realistic goals.
In my first blog i said something about Jan. 4th,2010. That is the date where i want to try and have at least a tad bit of confidence when i go to school. This is because I usually dread going to school. I dread going to school, because i get made fun of a lot. About how i wear my hair, and what i wear, and my makeup. And just stupid little cady things like that. they shouldn't mater to me, but after a while they get to you if you hear them enough. This is a slow and learning process. But I am going to try and make this happen. I want to be totally confident by January 4th,2011. Which is a few months before I graduate.

Thank You So much Snickerdoodle :)
You really opened my eyes. And that's what i want, I want to love myself for me, but as well, I want to be pretty, and help me feel even better about myself.

First Post.

As you can all tell from the title of my blog, I'm a normal high school girl. One who has no confidence. But my goal by the end of winter break ( Jan. 4th), is to have at least some confidence, which i hope to build the rest of the school year. To succeed in this, i am going to try and dress cute, and actually do my hair and makeup everyday. This is going to be a challenge for me, since i am not good at waking up early, but i am going to do it. And it might also be a challenge since i can't afford all the cute expensive clothes. But i do have cute clothes that i manage to find at Plato's closet, and some cute cool things from Gabriel Brothers. Well, for Christmas i got about $140, so I'm going to use that money to buy and find some cute clothes that will go with a lot, and so i can make a lot of combinations of clothing with. Any ideas for stuff i should look for?How is this blog going to help me? I'm not exactly sure, i plan on posting daily pictures of what i wear, especially to school, and have you guys give me hints and tips maybe?

Thanks for reading. And please help me :)